Monologue: It is hard to understand me????

A lot of things has happen lately... But what sadden me is, my friend keep telling me to go to a party that I dont feel invited... I am tired of this kind of feeling. Being a wallflower that people doesnt even care whether you go or not... invite half heartedly. even if i go, no one care if i even exist.. why go? I dont have money to. only have 218 in account.. I have no mom and dad to call to ask for money. My oldest sister has her hardest tome now, so who else should I bother? Why cant people understand that I have no one in my family to support me and I cannot keep bothering my friend for help. I have no clothes to wear, no shoes to match, nothing! Please, live me alone!!!! please, understand that I have no one! no one for things like this!!!!!!! :'( :"( :'(

Her Story (그녀의 이야기): 13 회

Chapter 13: If You Like Me, Why Don't You Just Say It?

She knows the harsh of rejection. she understand it really well.
She has been rejected one to many time. The hurts that she experiences were enough to makes her numbs. So numb that it hard to feel love again.
But then, rumor has it, there man who broke her heart before, like her back. But he couldn't let it be known as he is ashamed with her. No matter how beautiful is her heart, her appearance is what matters. She felt really sad...
Is that really embarrassing to like her?

Her Story (그녀의 이야기): 12 회

Chapter 12: For Them, She Provides Comforts. For Others, She Is A Threat.

"She is someone that listen attentively to others. Care and when being friends, she cares like it is her everything. She has been living with almost nothing. Compared to money and possession, friends are someone who she really cares of. Why?

Why does every move she made, they must be someone who envy her.. She can see in their eyes whenever her friends from various places greets her, there are glare of jealousy beaming through their eyes. How could she not notice the changed in their eyes?

Just because she keep saying that she doesn't really have friends, doesn't mean that she have none."

Her Story (그녀의 이야기) : 10 회

Chapter 10: Why Ask When You Already Know The Answer?

"Today she was ask the same question they've ask her before.
 
'By any chance, do you wanna meet them again?'
 
And she would answer the same answer as she gave before.
 
'no'
 
And then they advanced the question with a why.
 
'because the warmth that they offer is too little compared to the wound that they provide.'
 
Then they ask again, 'is it so hard to swim out from that scar?'
 
She smirked.
 
'a scar isn't a lake to swim, isn't a road to walk, or just a place where you can leave. A scar is a mark that carved either deeply or slightly onto something. The affect lasted depend on how long the mark stay.. And sometimes it last forever'
 
They laughed and teased at her on being such childish minded, asked where the rationality and positivity gone. She said,
 
'have you ever live in a live where a sincere sorry is unheard? Well I have. So, if you ask me where they went, they went to where the sincere sorry exist. Until someone brought it here...'
 
she left"

Her Story (그녀의 이야기) : 9 회

Chapter 9: Human Heart Are Different, Why Mad When We Are Not The Same?

"sometimes when things gets in our way... Stops us from doing what we like, it could bring tears to our eyes whatever we do, no heart is there to offer.. 

She realise that people are unique, born in different qualities anf different kind of patience... If it's happen to her, she would just cried silently and do rhe things without any complain... But, others just blow up while complaining and whining... 
She wonders why is everyone cannot be just like her and stop making the situation tense. It is because human are different in the way they act and the way they think... Its their decision on what move they make and how they express it... She wish she was..."

Her Story (그녀의 이야기) : 8 회

Chapter 8: HURT Is Getting Hurt.

"What she is supposed to do to prove to them that she is not like others! She is nothing like those who forget all of their deeds! 

She is nothing like those people who live for themselves and her! So please... please... please.... don't compare her with those people... she even vowed to herself that she will make them as her priority.. 

Don't wound her heart with those words... don't say those empty words... Please...Please...Please...

Then she thought, they must really hate her... She don't know why but today is is really hard fot her... The strong wall that she build, the strength sheild that she hold felt like it is tumbling down... Fix this heart..."

Her Story (그녀의 이야기) : 7 회

Chapter 7: Nice and Being Nice Is Two Different Thing...

"She try hard to be nice. 
Using every sweet words as possible to care of their relationship. But the more they talk, the more hurt she receives. 
Every warm words she uttered was reply with sharp and uncaring words. Being tolerate at only this side is getting tiring... She just pray that her heart will bear it all because once she's explodes, there is no end of it... 

So HEART, bear with her..."

Her Story (그녀의 이야기) : 6 회

Chapter 6: Faith! Save Me From The  Nothing I'll Become

"When being honest gets her punished, she decided to be a liar...

Please FAITH, prevent her from being so. Don't drag her heart into that mess again. You know how much she has suffered, what she went through in her life. 

How much that she has lost and how little does she gain... please FAITH, save her from the nothing that she'd become..."

Her Story (그녀의 이야기) : 5 회

Chapter 5: This Is Me, Take It Or Leave It.

"She was raised in a condition of where no one wanted to be friend with her, bad neighbors, and keep on meeting people who hurt her... that is why her home is the safest place for her, and television became her best friend. 

The scar in her heart ignites her to be careful with people, stay out of everybody ways... But it seems those dangerous people keep coming on her way despite her being invisible. Whatever she does, its attract people to care. If only she knows what was the reason, she might find a way to avoid those unwanted attention and feel peace again...
 
Then some may ask...
 
Why she is so afraid of people? They could be good and friendly, they could be nice and caring... then she answer,
 
'because those kind of happiness is like a bubble that is blown from the soap bottle, it may be beautiful and brings smile to you face. But when wind blows to hard, or it flown to somewhere prickly, it will pop and sometimes burn her eyes and bring her to tears. It better to stay cautious or stay away..."

Her Story (그녀의 이야기) : 4 회

Chapter 4: As Scary As Human Can Be

"She witness that today, love and relationship can turned someone into a monster... They could turn their back from friends, family and everyone that they once care. Then she thinks....
If later, when she is in love and relationship with someone, would she turn into monster too?"

Her Story (그녀의 이야기) : 3 회

Chapter 2: Being Alone Is Lonely and Being Together Could Be Crowded.

"Today she witness how childishness and money could be so scary. She knows from rumors and other people that money can be scary. But to really get to see it in front of her eyes is unthinkable. Money could turn you from your friend, being senseless of what others think and made you irrational. But then she thought to herself, maybe if it happens to her. 

She might do the same... then she re-thinks. Even though it never happen to her yet, she didn't think that it is all right to trouble other people, especially someone who share mutual trust with her get into such mess. Since humanity is far more important then money. She felt that things have good reason to happen and we need to see live in different perspectives. 

Saying 'Its your fault, no, its my fault, no I'm not sure' then make people suffocated with our not-so-sure decisions can be tiring. In any situation, rational is first. Even though things can be out of control, the hurt that we receive is bigger than we could manage, try to remember those faces that has been around us. Those only faces that always be there when we need them, that always remind us when we forget, the only one who wants to speak the truth even its hurt. 

She can only sees that these childish act has made no peace, no one get anything others than scars and she saw that they have lost the tiny bit of pity and love from people around them. this tiny piece of love that has been fueling their everyday life has gone in one blow due to their childishness. True, to them, their childishness is important. 

But we live in this world together, where being alone is lonely and being together could be crowded. She felt that they need to think again, how childish people can't be alone. Therefore, relationship is more important things to protect rather than acting irrationally."